身为美青的服事者，我深感惭愧
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最近，团契来了一位弟兄， Mr. Yong ，也是团契的新契友---为要寻找他人生的目的， 寻寻觅觅的找到美青， 他渴望团契从此方面可以帮到他， 正当我接触他的时候，我曾问他为何力量使到他选择来团契，为要肯定这位弟兄来的动机，于是他的回答却是令到我感到惊吓，我在此与大家分享；
Mr. Yong 回答：
When i was in Melbourne, I visited Methodist , the methodist there were made up of mostly youth and sibu people. Then when i first came back to miri i didn't know abt mei an, and my parents brought me to mr ling church....i stayed there for 3yrs...but honestly the worship doesn;'t suit me at all.
Maybe you have never been there b4, you can't really understand wha ti mean...but it really doesn't make sense to me the worship, everyone has t stand up to share and then no pastor is allowed...its not like i am being critical to the church, but its just not suitable to me so i left. There is nothing wrong with the church, all churches are the same to me provided we all believe in the trinity and Jesus christ and the bible. Just the woship is weird to me. Then it came by chance that wong teck hui wants to visit church too, so i ask miss teng to bring us to mei an because to me, i feel it will help wong more if i take him to methodist rather than mr ling church...he will sure feel scare if he visits mr ling church. When i first visited mei an, i feel comfortable, it is exaclty what i asked for in a church service.
That is how i ended up in mei an. As for why i wanted to volunteer, I have been a christian since 2001. And duirng this 7 yrs i have never involved in serving in church, for a 7 yr christian, its like i am always a passenger watching people steer the plane. If you believe in God's guidance you would have aware that God's calling to service is persistence, i have read many Word of God's word on servicing yet i haven't started anything. Once again, at one of the service where 郑信慧传道 made a sermon, he talked about servicing in church asking people not to sit there and watch but there are many chances to get involved. On hearing that sermon of course i felt there is a need inme to get involved. I did contact him and asked him what can i involve in serving the church, even little thing and he suggested me to visit the fellowship as a start and then slowly check out what is suitable to me. I did tell him my schedule is inconsistent coz i always go out for oustation trip. I did asked wong to join too, coz i think it will help him too but we were busy and then he is in btu.
Then i think why not i join first, since i have time that day, i contacted mss teng she asked me to contact you thats how i came to you. like i said, i don't think i have too much time to be so involved in church because my work is hectic but i know i can give a little now rather than my spiritual life is just sitting at the church at 7pm every sunday night and thats it. Once again, last saturday at fellowship the speech did tok about getting involved with church, so my answer is simple, there are many times i heard calls for servicing, yet i have never get involved..at methodist i believe there are many ways i can get involved, one of the ways is to get to know the people there such as you and you will allocate the work that is needed to help to me. My life now is simply work and home, i have no social obligation and involvement at all, i sometimes admire those people who every sunday persistently go to church to serve behind the backstage for years, to them the social obligation to their church has became an integral part of their life.
As for why i wanted to get involved? To me, i just want to make a change in my spiritual life, i do have devotion time for myself now, but 3 yrs from now i want to have myself not just eh same person who sits at the corner of the church like a passenger watching people steer the plane. 3 yrs from now i hope i am one of the mechanics who helps to get the plane going. If i never join fellowship, i know there is only one consequence, that 3 yrs later i am still the same old chirstian who just show up on sunday for sermon and there goes my week.
久贤回答：
I am sorry, just accept my apologizing for my inquisity to know why u are here in our church, as you know, as if we know your aims direction, therefore we can guide you to achieve your vision, I was touched by what you said, especially when you tell me that; "..........3 yrs from now i want to have myself not just eh same person who sits at the corner of the church like a passenger watching people steer the plane......."
A lot of church nowadays are too focusing in inspiration yet forget the real needs of the people . Recently, most of the people want most is to search for the answer for what purpose are they living in this world. So for the church who pay atttention more on inspiration such as our boss's church will definitely cannot fulfil the people's needs. Therefore why a lot people feel uncomfortable with the fellowship/ their worship.
Methodist church's mission is focusing in helping u to get know about your self, your God and at last the inspiration. I am please/ this is thy's( God's) pleasure that you accept Mei Ann as a suite fellowship place to u. When i was at 18 years, i was being bullied by a group of immoral people and i cannot ask myself to forgive the whole world, i lost all my living direction and at last i choose to suicide and end up my life. When i close up my eyes, i found myself losting in darkness, and i really dun know where am i, "am i death?"i asked to myself. but suddenly the movie about my pass 18 years life was showing just front to me and passing through my mind.
Tears was out from my eyes, and is that my whole life spent just like that? What a pity, thus i remember the lord who will make a way in the darkness and i called him,
"Lord, please help your son who had been lost. I know suicide is a sin but it is really pain to recall how the bad people had done the bad thing on me, suicide is the best way to release my pain and phobia, unless you help me out to find my living purpose.. "
At last i found there is a light at the front and i walk gradually towards to the light and suddenly i fainted when i got close the light, at last i found myself at hospital when i awake and a lot of nurse and doctors surrounded me, looking at me strangely. When the doctor telling me the truth, i found i was fortunately saved. So i know the Lord is giving the 2nd chance for me, and thy is changing my life direction into eternal life. I owed him a lot of thing so that is why i am now paying my time and my life to him, as you said,
become the pilot who send the people in the plane to the eternal heaven. So, just don't give up, my friend. You will find a never ending love if you willing want to search for the purpose of you life from the God. I belive your life will be definitely changed if you willing. So you have shared a good message to me, i feel graceful and all the blessing to you, my friend, Mr. Yong. U are a sweet guy in my heart, or a lovely son in our lord's heart. Amen............................
主内的弟兄姐妹，原来在我们的四围有许多人正在寻求人生的方向， 他们渴望从神那里得到答案，他们真的很需要我们陪同，帮助他们。可是，美青的近况确是乎已忘记了我们起初与神有约的标杆人生的宗旨，特别是我们的小组事工，许多弟兄姐妹给于忽冷忽热的回应。八位小组组长努力的策划，但许多senior的契友却没有出席哟。
当我在阅读组长们的小组报告时，看到他们灰心，失落的感言，我的心里自问：
WHAT IS GOING ON?
为了小组，我选择进行一周三天的禁食祷告，希望主可赐给我聪明智慧来肯定小组组长们。
直到，我关心这位弟兄及听他的分享后，我觉得我们真的是无比的惭愧，大家还记得我们的小组梦想吗？我们的小组材料的标杆人生就是让更多人肯定他们生存的目的，结果小组聚会时却是新契友多过旧契友，我们 suppose 应该在小组中与他们分享我们基督徒多年的经历与见证给他们，结果我们却未能做到。。。Mr Yong, 仅只是一个新契友，却带着一个梦想：
“我要像飞机师一样带领许多游客到父的天国去。。”
如果今天天父听了这一番话，他的心是何其的安慰, please ask ourselves,
What have we done for our Christ?
所以，契友们，特别是我们的旧血，我们美青及小组需要你们的支持和肯定，出席100% 的小组，让新朋友们能得到你们的帮助。
希望你们听到我们的心声，勇敢的走出去，就从美青的小组事工开始吧。。。。
久贤编
Anonymous/ Grace said:
久贤弟兄，T-shirt的设计很漂亮^_^！很感动于你和Yong弟兄的分享！人的心之所冷淡，很多时候是因为麻木了，而忙碌时常都是导致麻木的因素。麻木的意思就是一点感觉都没有，在肉体上来说，麻木是身体被一样东西压太久，血液不流通而引起的。同样的，生活中的劳碌愁苦就是这些压在大家身上的东西，压太久了，灵命也就感到麻木了。所以，要解决这个问题，就要从生活的优先顺序开始，好好的管理时间，如此必能将压在身上的东西挪开。组长们别灰心哦，努力的更新自己，装备自己，上帝必要祝福你们的带领！加油哦！
March 14, 2008 5:36 PM 久贤回：
谢谢你欣赏我的 t-shirt, 我只是透过 t-shirt 的图案来表达“如何勇敢的走出去去从父那里得到人生目的”，但此非为我们青年主日的最终设计，我们还有更好的设计。
您所说的的确正确， 许多人真的在服事的忙碌/工作的压力中而成了——“马大”， 服事的麻木及没有方向，所以，要解决这个问题，就要从生活的优先顺序开始，好好的管理时间 ，所以青年人我们须接纳 Grace顾问的意见， 好好从重新调教我们的事奉。谢谢Grace.
特别是我和 Grace 出席标杆40的宣传会第一次召集时，我们看了影片后， “大力的摇着头”，我们的心 却被万tonne 的石头压着， 因为标杆40是个比我们青年主日的事工大上好几倍的工程， 几乎我心里还自问，
“我们能做到吗？特别是团契”
所谓水亦可载舟，亦可覆舟，如果标杆40 能成功的话，这是我们教会有史以来的大复兴，若反之，不但不能复兴，反而成败北的现象，就有多方面的影响。不过，我相信影片里的一位牧者说的一句话：
you are no over your communication yet. (something like this)......
我们的宣传及小组的关心及结构不强的话，祷告不足， 还有不再有委身的组长的话，这个计划真的只是“夜马行空”，同时，作者提到我们在预备的三个月前期真的要平衡我们的事奉， 能的话不要接太多侍奉，预备好我们的心。
最后，我们还是希望Grace 多支持我们的部落格。
